It's a New Year

It’s time for some New Year’s resolutions. 

Well, I don’t have one. I only have a few confessions. 1. I’ve quit my job. 2. I got my own place. 3. I’m leaving and I don’t know exactly where. I just know I’m leavin’ town and I’m throwing away my to-do list.

Just kidding. Happy New Year’s Day everyone!

For the year ahead I only have one wish though. Freedom.

Not the kind I secretly longed for a long time. Not detachment from responsibilities and roles. Not the random spontaneous kind that boils up an explosive rush within. I must admit, there are days (and more still of those days), I wish I have a magical remote control over everything – to press on the mute button to all the unsynchronized voices I hear, to switch off channels when my present load becomes unbearable, to turn off and get a break. But life, for me and for everyone else, does not operate that way. Thank God and His infinite wisdom. My life is not one giant box filled with unwanted stuffs while I get tangled down at the bottom unable to climb my way up for escape. Instead, I know and I constantly remind myself, that mine (like everyone else’s) is a gift. Only, to fully appreciate and use that gift is to first unlock it with a key called Freedom.

Yes. The one that allows me to choose. Life or Death. Joy or Sorrow. Gratitude or Loss. The one that my Friend spared His life for just so I may have life in its fullness. Enough of too much thinking. Enough of too much empty words. Enough of what I know. I just want it. I need it. Not something outside of me but something that integrates in my whole being. Inseparable. Something that I cannot live without. 

“As for you my friends, you were called to be free. But do not let this freedom become an excuse for letting your physical desires control you. Instead, let love make you serve one another.” (Galatians 5: 13)